Hit with Grief

Today, just as any other day, I woke and I started toasting some waffles. As I waited for them to finish I decided to take a chance and watch the morning news. Sure enough, there were the bright shining faces on the TV wishing me a happy morning with updates on the weather and current events with the occasional joke on the side. Had I known what was to shortly ensue in this program I most likely would have turned the telly off. Alas, a report began where a young boy had been burned on 60% of his body. Normally, this wouldn't catch my attention except for the fact that the circumstances of which this event occurred made my stomach turn.

Apparently the boy was being bullied by some former friends from school. Michael Brewer is his name. As the report goes, Michael owed a kid named Bent some money for a video game, about $40. Since Michael didn't pay up, Bent tried to take Michael's bike but was thwarted by Michael's parents and arrested and sent to juvie, for a day.

Needless to say, Bent had his heart set on revenge. Days later, Bent and his 4 friends brought alcohol and poured it over Michael and set him on fire. He was found by a pool screaming. A lady called 911 for help.

The kid is ok now, as much as he can be anyway. With skin grafts and operations he pulled through. But he will continue to be in pain and deal with post-traumatic stress for the rest of his life unless God works a miracle in his life. You know, usually this kind of thing is only experienced in times of war and conflict. Not to a child.

Needless to say, I turned away from the TV in disgust. Not of Michael's wounds, but of humanity. As I reached for the remote to turn the channel, God told me, "No Caasi, you're going to watch. You need to sample just a microscopic inkling of the pain I see, hear, and feel every moment of everyday. Just as I heard the blood of Able cry out from the grave to me for justice, so do I hear the millions of humanity that cry, groan, grieve, and suffer. Evil does not pass my notice, nor should it yours. So weep and know."

I tell you now, I have not cried like that in a long time, nor so suddenly. It was more than I could bear. In the words of Isaiah I said, "Woe is me, I am undone. For I am a man of unclean lips and I live among a people of unclean lips..."

Immediately I wanted to get up and do something. Anything. But I felt so helpless. I thought maybe I should start an organization, or a ministry that reached out to kids being bullied. But then God spoke to me again and He said, "They need to know Me. All of them; the children, adults, victims, bullies... they all need Me. There are many organizations and institutions that deal with aftermath and prevention. But until they know I AM, all will fall short and you will not but care for one victim until another comes along. Reach the lost where you are, then we'll talk about reaching people groups and nations."

This is the best interpretation I can give for what God put upon my heart. All I know, is that we should not turn away and desensitize ourselves to the pain around us. The more we hear the cries of pain, agony,suffering, and loneliness; just maybe we'll develop a heart of the lost and dying. If Hell is a real place, then why aren't we doing anything to save anyone?

Giving is a good thing. Praying and reading the Bible is awesome. But if we never lead one person to Jesus, then are we really following Christ? Is God really dwelling in us? Or are we just spectating to watch the outcome of this life? We should always strive to help the poor, hurt, broken, hungry, and naked. But if we never share with them the hope of Christ, we are just patching wounds and sending people back in to the same hopelessness they just came from. There has to be a change, there must be a difference.

Tough questions that can't go unanswered...

A Defense Agaisnt Relativism

(This letter was written in defense of a friend who was writing about morality and ethics. It has been slightly adjusted to help the comprehensive fluidity for the current reader, being you.)


It's all a farce. All these arguments are nothing more than word play and semantic delusion. Relative humanism and nihilistic philosophy rears its ugly head once again. Men pride themselves in their attempt to refute God and His truth. "Only the fool says in his heart, there is no God." Without concluding the issue of the existence of God, it is only expected that these deny transcendent truth and ethics from a moral law giver, i.e. God. Men and women blind themselves to the truth while they posit a stance of relativism or nihilism, proclaiming the truth of no truth and the purpose of purposelessness.

The fact is that no society, nor even a person, can properly maintain a basic functionality without meaning. In this case a person may attempt to create proximate meaning for basic functionality, though to what end and for what reason I am not sure. At this point it all basically becomes an illusion to cope with and maintain some form of normalcy for day to day non-purposeful purpose to continue living a purposeless existence. It seems death is no different than life, other than that it appears we are aware we are alive and not aware that we've died. I consider it all pseudo-intellectual banter only used to satisfy an empty heart longing for something more.

Some have stated that morals are subjective. Well that's obvious, for morals are nothing but mere mores observed from a certain sample people group in which the most common actions or popular opinion become the standard for normal cultural expectation. So for the Nazis, holocaust was the general expectation of that people group that dictated the given morals of that society. However, it was circumstance and deception that unified a nation against another. The killing of the Jews was derived from false accusations from Hitler and his corrupt ideals birthed from Godlessness and hate.

If one were wrongfully accused of a crime and punished for it, or even murdered for it, they could not reasonably justify to me that an act of evil that transcends personal emotion and opinion has not occurred. Unless, that is, they believe that there is no God, in which there is no moral lawgiver who gives a standard of good and evil. In this case all simply is and decisions are not by choice, but simply the predestined unfolding of a staged play that has been written by our genetic code. Thus, chance becomes our creator. And in the words of Steve Turner, 

“If chance be

the Father of all flesh,

disaster is his rainbow in the sky

and when you hear

State of Emergency!

Sniper Kills Ten!

Troops on Rampage!

Whites go Looting!

Bomb Blasts School!

It is but the sound of man

worshipping his maker.”

Though, I'm sure that those who do not believe in God will surely disagree. It is expected. In fact, the current issue at hand is but a domino issue down the chain of causality that one arrives from the truly most important question that has either rewarded or plagued men throughout history; is there a God?

Some of the previous posts of these relativists have included the words “good” and “love.” You have no reference point or justification to use these words. They are borrowed words that you have deconstructed and rebuilt in your own image. We Christians believe that our words are not our own creations, but translations of translations that originate from the creator. If I wanted to be technical and cruel I could say that you argue in vain and in an unknown tongue of which I cannot understand or comprehend. Your argument is of no value because it has a purpose of purposelessness which contradicts itself.

Someone previously posted that gold and copper have inherent value. “Both naturally have the value of conducting electrons easily. Silicon has a natural value as a resistor. Diamonds have a natural value for cutting rocks.” This is false. These have functional purposes to which we attribute value. If we did not need conductors or rock cutters we would not need gold, copper, and diamonds in the previously given context, thus not attributing or finding any value relative to us. To assert that materials have inherent value and mankind does not is simply ridiculous. If someone had a gun to your head and asked you if you wanted to live you would surely say yes, this attributing value to your own life for whatever reason. Then you must ask the question, of what makes your life valuable and others not? But if you said no, you relativists would not bother in promoting this argument you have so graciously presented before us. Realize that we do not live in a vacuum. Though it may seem logical on paper, life is not lived on paper nor solely on logic.

‎"The heart has its reasons of which reason
knows nothing. It is the heart which perceives God and not the reason.
That is what faith is: God perceived by the heart, not by the reason." -Blaise Pascal-

But I know I cannot convince you to faith. We speak in two totally different languages. I care not to debate for simple intellectual satisfaction or personal pleasure to the affirmation of my own worldview. Truth is truth whether we recognize and affirm it or not. My plea is that you simply search out the face of God and know Him as I have. To be able to see the wonder, joy, peace, and love of a savior in which we all “live, move, and exist. Acts 17:28.” Some have said, that they could be wrong. I encourage you to search that out. I’ve never heard a missionary say “I wish I had just lived for myself in this meaningless world.” But I have heard atheists wish for something more and die in their regret.

P.S. Please don’t assume that we Christians are all illogical or unreasonable. It’s just rude, you know.